Wayward Dog-hearted Lewdster

I feel like a helpless prey trapped in a snare. It sucks to have myself entangled with people who are never really necessary in my life. Building a stable and positive, if not positive, at least a neutral relationship with them has now become one of the things that I need to worry about and constantly deal with. I am coerced to accept the big possibility of my fate getting entwined perpetually with these "unnecessary people." Being involved with them is never my option. It just all originated when I met someone special in my life. I guess being connected with them just tags along.

I wasn't really happy circa beginning that I met these "unnecessary people." I have tried comprehending the situation long before as I was warned and given the idea of what kind of people they are. I tried to understand but I never thought that situations could get even worse and more irksome once you get to know them face-to-face. From the start, I only received apathy, anger, guilt and power trips, hatred, and indifference -- which is not a very nice scenario when you are in my POV. I met them only a few times and the experience was unforgettable, burdensome, and tedious. I never expected special treatments but the indifference around their presence is completely bothersome! What the hell did I do to deserve such treatment? I never did anything wrong. I was kind and polite, courteous and congenial to them. Nevertheless, I still get execrable treatment in exchange for my positive attitude. 

Even though I have met them only a few times, I am still connected with them via this person and this connection yielded to a silent and cold war; haplessly, it still wages. I foresee that this burden of establishing neutral relationships with these rude boors will continue for a lifetime and will only subside when I finally detached myself from this person (which goes to almost zero possibility). It sucks to know that they hate me for obviously unreasonable claims. It bothers me a lot and as long as my relationship continues with this person, the concealed fight will continuously carry on.

It's such a pain in the ass to bear this beastly problem. I am bound to deal with these "unnecessary people" even when I should be the least person who should be concerned. How I wish I can freely express my enmity and abhorrence towards them and the situation they have put me into without inflicting anyone to emotional hurt. Oh the pang and disgust that I feel that I was even condemned and never was given a chance to redeem myself! How I wish I could iron things out but it turns out, no matter what, nobody can ever please everybody.

How Big Is Your Problem?

I have crashed my father's car, breached my job contract, received multiple threats; I was proposed with a lot of disappointing job offers; I have been unemployed for six months now; I am dependent to my parents at my supposedly productive age; I am on a frustrating and unpromising career, etc. — name it, at a young age, I have been into a lot of discouraging, disappointing, appalling, distressing events in my life. I've been caught in a lot of troubles since the start of the year. I have been scolded by my parents, got ditched by my friends when I can't afford to hang out with them, got so broke that I only had few pennies left in my purse, got so sad and helpless.

Honestly, it came to the point in my life that I was about to break down.

I felt miserable for the way things were going. I admit I made unwise decisions and got so careless. I admit I have been weak at times and I have made a lot of mistakes. All of these thoughts were haunting and eating me alive. The thoughts that I have nurtured which obliviously, were harmful to my whole being. I have been drunk with fear and I let it suck my fortitude. I was so worried and scared of what constitutes my tomorrows. I was so anxious.

But it came to the point where I became so tired with all these thoughts that were running in my mind and it came to me that there's no one to blame but myself. I am responsible for every decision and choice I make. I took responsibility.

But I was wrong on pretending I am Superwoman who can manage all things and iron them out.

I am not and definitely will never be.

All of the times that I have been insufficient and miserable, I have forgotten that the only solution to my problem is to call on to God. Many times that I have forgotten about Him during the miserable days of my life. I hid from Him and pushed Him away just because my emotions were too overwhelming. But then, God is the only One we need when things are not right. He is the only source of peace that we should cling to. God is the only One who can provide peace, calm, and inner comfort that we can never afford to have in any other way.

During the times I have been so down, I have put on a smile before everyone else and presented myself with concealed emotions, but I was hurting deep inside. I was so broken. But I clung to God and called to Him and He immediately granted me inner peace as if He was whispering to my ear, "Everything will be fine because I am your God." He is my sole source of strength, hope, and courage.

No matter how big your problems are, God is bigger than your problems. Just call on to Him and pray and peace will immediately transcend to you. Let not problems be barrier to your fellowship and relationship with God! Just pray. :)

And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus. - Philippians 4:7

50 Lessons I Wish I Had Learned Earlier

Hi everyone. I am into StumbleUpon lately as an effect of being unemployed for almost 6 months already. Being a bum, all I do is surf the web for anything interesting and funny articles, pictures, etc. So I just wanna share with you what I stumbled upon.

50 Lessons I Wish I Had Learned Earlier from this site.

Have fun reading! They are very meaningful lessons that are helpful in putting up a positive outlook in life. :)

1. You’re stronger than you think you are.
2. Mistakes teach you important lessons. Every time you make one, you’re one step closer to your goal.
3. There is nothing to hold you back except you.
4. You can press forward long after you can’t. It’s a matter of wanting it bad enough.
5. No matter how much progress you make there will always be the people who insist that whatever you’re trying to do is impossible.
6. You are limited only by your own imagination. Let it fly.
7. Perception is reality.
8. Your instincts can be trusted.
9. There is only one question to ask yourself: “What would you do if you were not afraid?”
10. It’s often hard to tell just how close you are to success.
11. The only mistake that can truly hurt you is choosing to do nothing simply because you’re too scared to make a mistake.
12. Never let success get to your head, and never let failure get to your heart.
13. You have to fight through some bad days to earn the best days of your life.
14. Life is 10% what happens to you and 90% how you react to it.
15. Do what you love, not what you think you’re supposed to do.
16. Laughter is the best medicine for stress. Laugh at yourself often.
17. If you want to feel rich, just count all the great things you have that money can’t buy.
18. Forgiving yourself is far more important than getting others to forgive you.
19. If you awake every morning with the thought that something wonderful will happen in your life today, you’ll often find that you’re right.
20. Be nice to yourself.
21. For the most part, it doesn’t matter what people think. Follow your own truth.
22. No education is wasted. Drink in as many new experiences as you can.
23. Making one person smile can change the world.
24. Don’t forget to enjoy your journey!
25. You never know how strong you really are until being strong is the only choice you have.
26. Sometimes good things fall apart so better things can fall together.
27. You cannot change what you refuse to confront.
28. Crying doesn’t indicate that you’re weak. It doesn’t always solve your problems either.
29. No matter how many mistakes you make or how slow you progress, you are still way ahead of everyone who isn’t trying.
30. Life isn’t about waiting for the storm to pass, it’s about learning to dance in the rain.
31. You can learn great things from your mistakes when you aren’t busy denying them.
32. Give up worrying about what others think of you.
33. When you stop chasing the wrong things you give the right things a chance to catch you.
34. You have to accept that some things will never be yours, and learn to appreciate the things that are only yours.
35. As Henry Ford put it,“Whether you think you can or you think you can’t, you are right.”
36. Don’t be afraid to move out of your comfort zone. Some of your best life experiences and opportunities will transpire only after you dare to lose.
37. Giving up doesn’t always mean you’re weak, sometimes it means you are strong enough and smart enough to let go.
38. You’ll rarely be 100% sure it will work. But you can always be 100% sure doing nothing won’t work.
39. Don’t dwell on the past or worry about the future for too long. Right now is life. Live it.
40. No matter how cautiously you choose your words, someone will always twist them around and misinterpret what you say. Just say what you need to say.
41. Not getting what you want is sometimes a wonderful stroke of good luck.
42. If you are passionate about something, pursue it, no matter what anyone else thinks. That’s how dreams are achieved.
43. If you keep doing what you’re doing, you’ll keep getting what you’re getting.
44. What lies before us and behind us are tiny matters when compared to what lies within us.
45. Don’t pray when it rains if you don’t pray when the sun shines.
46. It’s not about getting a chance, it’s about taking a chance.
47. If it were easy everyone would do it.
48. Be vulnerable.
49. A problem is a chance for you to learn.
50. Regardless of the situation, life goes on.

Steer The Wheel

With great precision, he turned the steering wheel gracefully as he shifted the gear with great accuracy to adjust to the vehicle's appropriate speed in an effort to avoid the cutting vehicle and as well, for smooth driving. Needless to say, with his propensity in driving, he must have been not only an experienced driver but a veteran one. His oak skin tone; his embossed veins, from his hands to his arms, which are faithful in delivering blood and other nutrients to the most used parts of his body; his calm appearance that concludes he is ages away from juvenile; his wrinkled skin that are so prominent and definite in his forehead and temples; his shabby clothes and unkempt hair -- all which leaves strong and robust clues to the kind of life he is living. He is a man who works hard daily in order to earn a living to feed some hungry mouths -- my mainstream judgment to this type of employee. Judging his aura, he is a man with a milestone capacity. He have charms by the way he entertains his passengers with humor and social skill. He is not just a typical man compared to the idea you have of a public vehicle driver. When you look at him, you will know that there is something mysterious and cryptic about him, that he is different than the rest of the public vehicle drivers.

His eyes cast a weary and exhausted look but his whole figure shows that he can still work and that he should still work. He began spilling some excerpts of his life to entertain the passenger in the passenger's seat and as well as to halt the ennui of his tiresome job. As a man, he is the breadwinner of the family. He is scared to attempt not working at all with fear that he would die in hunger although he has tried before. He had learned his lesson the hard way, he jokingly said but it was distinct that he is coming from somewhere. "Being idle will bring you no food and income", he cited a proverb from the Bible. These words sprung from his lips without friction but were intended. As a passenger, I listened carefully to his rants and musings and expected that there was something precious about his stories. The way the man looks, you may not take him seriously, but he is a man who still has marked pride and dignity, even so little.

Educated, ethical, and honorable, these are what describe him when he was in his early years. He was reared by the grace of well-off parents who had given him the privilege of getting high class education. He was brought up with appropriate conduct and right manners and he lived a life away from his current state. He managed to finish school with flying colors and he had earned a degree which promised him a successful career. He was on the hands of good employment which eventually steered his life in a richer turn. Because he was made wealthy, he had indulged in different affairs and had enjoyed the luxury of spending money on non-necessities. He was too preoccupied with the idea that his wealth was infinite or so he thought. He embraced wealth fully that indeed, he was made to believe that his rich life was a diamond that would go on forever.  This kind of life went on smoothly for him but not for so long. Like in the movies, not all endings are happy. He lost majority of his possessions of which cause was not disclosed. Tried and tested, he was not that mighty as he had thought.

He paused for a moment and took a deep breath. I was puzzled with his sudden inscrutable silence. His steady and serious expression concluded that he is still wallowing in major regret. The depth of his expirations were hypothetical of a deep sorrow. Even though he braved not to express any mourning on his situation, I know that he was mourning silently for the loss of his wealth, which was his everything.

As I set out and walk while watching him collect more passengers, I felt thirsty for his sad but interesting story. Even though the story may not go on, I believe that he is swimming in pool of regrets. He almost had everything, but money is not everything. Life is indeed tricky with the timing of turning the wheel of fate. But one thing I know of and it is to never hold on dearly to material possessions. Money is not a human's lifeline that when it is gone, life becomes meaningless. We must keep in mind that there are more important things than money and wealth, and those things are indispensable and are far more precious than any diamonds...